I was dishonest, I admit it. I lied about something that I shouldn’t have and completely disrupted my relationship to the point where I have to accept that it will probably never be the same. It was straight chaos for weeks and what I think really exacerbated the dispute was that my girlfriend never thought I could ever do anything wrong. She thought I was perfect and would make a point to tell me that almost everyday.
But that’s just it, I’m not perfect. I never was. I make mistakes, a lot of mistakes. I sometimes say the wrong things at the worst times. Sometimes I forget to do things or I’m late for a date. And guess what, sometimes I even lie.
I’m not proud of what I’ve done and I don’t want this post in any way to justify me lying. My only goal is to say that we all have many sides to us. Both males and females can be equally caring and unemotional, headstrong and docile, angry and forgiving. We just need the maturity to decide when to best act on those emotions. No one person should be held hostage to being that one person all the time. We are multidimensional, emotional beings and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with that.
I still have a lot of growing to do myself. I’m slowly coming into the person I want to be but truthfully I’m not sure I’ll ever get there. I may always be a work in progress, trying to balance each side of my personality while trying to consider those around me who matter most. Hopefully they’re patient enough to stick with all of the “me’s” long enough for me to figure things out. Guess I’ll have to wait and see….